"The thing is... The thing is..." "What? What is the thing?" She laughed because she caught my movie reference. She continues, "I always considered myself unloved. I wanted to say that no one have ever appreciated me. The problem is, it's mostly lie. And I've been lying to myself with that for almost my whole life. I didn't know I could do that, until someone I loved appeared in my dream (or a trance, maybe?) She chuckled when she saw me smile. And continued in parentheses, "(The point is,) he shook me by the shoulder and yelled, 'Why are you so blind?' I started to realize that I've been lying to myself. But when I realized the reasons for doing that,... "It's not because I don't need the world to love me. I'm needy in that respect. I'm just afraid of the people I love. I have a history of hurting people inadvertently. Somehow it makes me feel that I don't love them. And when I ponder over what I...